Celebrating 20 Weeks

This poem is inspired by + dedicated to our summer baby. It’s been 20 weeks of learning how to let my heart hold a gift of this magnitude. Just as God gives us the comfort + hope to endure our pain, He also gives us the courage + confidence to truly, fully rejoice!

But this poem is also for anyone holding their best dream at arm’s length. Sometimes the most daring thing we can do is write our dreams in parenthesis. God sees you and all your tiny scribbles.

It’s safe to write it down.


The First Poem I’ve Written in a Long Time

I used to love writing poetry. I would fill pages with poems and write them in class when I should have been focused on the lecture. I wasn’t scared to put my emotions on paper and bring out something purposeful. As I got older and blogged more, there seemed to be less space for poetry. For a few years, I wrote very private 4-line “poems” to God as a way of worship and I learned to preserve my talent & creativity for Him alone. That was a beautiful season too.

These last few weeks have been a discouraging time for me as a writer. There are so many good things happening in my life (!!), but the change and transition launched me into a kind of “writing limbo” I didn’t expect. But it’s good to stand still, to float in a season of questioning. In the frustrating days that followed, I realized I wanted to return to things I first loved as a child–writing fictional stories and lots of poetry.

But you know what?

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The Celebrating Soul

Pain Is a Gateway Not a Gift

Pain is a gateway to the best joy & peace. . .God Himself.

It is not that hard & painful things are swept under the rug and dealt with superficially as we tack on Christianese and suck it up. It is moreso that we have no rug or superficial joy or adequate reasoning to turn to. . .so we CLING to the only One who satisfies, who can make sense of senselessness.

We run, fall, cry, and wrestle safely in the Refuge of God. We are upheld, unashamed, and understood. We find our true joy in God because we are finally unable to hide from or ignore the only One who so perfectly comforts, helps, and transforms.

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