And it’s personal, awful, and beautiful.

These last years were some of the hardest emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Poetry is the only way I know to truly acknowledge the reality of the pain that is infertility and honor the story I have lived alongside God.

So I wrote a book using only poetry to tell the story.

Looking back, 2017 was one of the worst years of my life as I began to really admit I was struggling with pain, grief, and scary questions + emotions. The following years of infertility would bring healing & hope in ways my heart was desperate for.

I’m finally in a place to share this with you.

Hope Gives a Eulogy is a collection of 95 poems inspired by the grief + pain of infertility and the healing + hope I found in God.

In the next few weeks, you can expect this photo with snippets of poetry, more about my infertility journey & what to look forward to in Hope Gives a Eulogy.

This is not a sampling of the book cover (but wait till you see the actual cover!!), but this photo does represent the spring that came eventually. But more on that when you actually read the poetry this spring!!❤

You need to know this story is not about getting pregnant. It’s not about my son. Pregnancy wasn’t the source of healing. It wasn’t THE answer. It certainly wasn’t the only impossible gift. The YEARS I grieved were somehow filled with hope & healing.

Because of God.

And THAT’S the story I’m telling. The poetry in Hope Gives a Eulogy covers the death-like, hollow, scraping emotions of infertility. . .and the healing I experienced in my womanhood because of God. . .the hope of life seen in flowers, finally seen in me. Before my son.

Spring 2021 is going to be lovely! And March is going to be full to the brim with poems inspired by Hope Gives a Eulogy and personal thoughts shared on my blog.

I’m so glad you’re here and so thankful and ready to share this with you.