March | A Personal Journey Through 2019

Last March hit me like a freight train. It was chaos in my mind, a revisiting of mental warfare I knew too well and hated so much. But as the days progress, you can see the victory God gave me! God is ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS greater and more powerful!

In the last 13 years, I have battled seasons of severe anxiety and fear. I am not an expert on mental health and would never claim to be, but I can tell you meditating on the truth of God’s Word, realigning my mind to what is real, and understanding my new identity in Christ has been the way of freedom from any grip of my my spiraling darkness. And I have spiraled and I have felt hopeless, but God! As spring broke in, the light broke through my heart again. And while we lost our beloved goat near the end of March, life still prevailed.

And you’ll see so much of it in April & May!


01: let’s be honest. . .a rough start. . .

02: resting + making a list of things God has given. . .cultivating thanks

03. God giveth and giveth and giveth and giveth more grace ❀

04: legos with L + M & goats with the neighbors πŸ™‚ a tiny bit of sun

05: nothing recorded

06: ❀ 3 different, very specific gifts from God ❀

07: Ephesians 2 ❀

08: good laughter + bonding with D

09: manzanita blooms. . .touching the promise of spring. much needed

10: God turned around my whole weekend. He’s changing my life.

11: nothing recorded

12: progress on pantry. . .a better day πŸ™‚

13: beautiful day of sunshine

14: pantry done & chat with J

15: Psalm 119:9-39 ❀ ❀

16: dawn of victory

17: ❀ more victory + “birthday observation” shopping

18: Birthday Observation Day πŸ˜€

19: God will prevail. ❀

20: God did PREVAIL and He is & will continue to

21-22: C + family

23: search me and know me ❀

24: so much victory!

25: -more freedom & still listening, still fighting (for truth)

26: beautiful buttercups in the breeze + birds chirping

27: the sun came out to surprise us! ❀

28: I LOVE E’s prayers at snack and all she is thankful for. . . .

29: (billy goat dies suddenly, horribly) Nigel ❀ we sure loved ya

30: Margie starts to kid (which turned out to be Margie just getting visibly closer to kidding πŸ˜€ )

31: New life πŸ˜€


This post has been sitting in the draft section for awhile. . . just waiting for the end of March. I had no idea then that our world would look and feel so different, that March would hit us all like a freight train, that it would be uncharted territory, and that we would all face some kind of loss, uncertainty, or unknown. But here we are. It’s March. And it’s pretty ugly. Again.

But you know what?

This is not the end. God is greater. Life prevails. The hope of who God is permeates our every day and settles into our souls when all else feels unsettling. We are here. And we can be confident without embracing blind optimism. Let’s fight for truth. Let’s grieve with God. Let’s anticipate the good, glory-filled, wonderful things God will do. Let’s take refuge in His steadfast love and faithfulness. This is hope in action.

Happy April!

When Society Cries

Social media warfare can be overwhelming. At times, it can even sound stupid. The news seems like a bunch of twisted, devastating facts. Politics don’t just divide us, they destroy us. We are bent over, reeling, shouting, arguing, outraged. . .crying.

This is what our society sounds like to me.


Celebrating 20 Weeks

This poem is inspired by + dedicated to our summer baby. It’s been 20 weeks of learning how to let my heart hold a gift of this magnitude. Just as God gives us the comfort + hope to endure our pain, He also gives us the courage + confidence to truly, fully rejoice!

But this poem is also for anyone holding their best dream at arm’s length. Sometimes the most daring thing we can do is write our dreams in parenthesis. God sees you and all your tiny scribbles.

It’s safe to write it down.