I love that flowers have taught me how to anticipate life. It’s exciting to see the buds and watch them slowly expand. And it’s thrilling to look and suddenly see a flower in all its glory! I would go so far as to say it’s the 8th wonder of the world.
Flowers help me look forward, but they also teach me to sit still. This daisy won’t be here forever, but while it’s here, I’m going to be here too. I’m going to savor this beautiful thing, and I’m going to be excited for all the beautiful things coming next.
Plant your feet.
Two years later and that little daisy bush (originally purchased as a plastic pot of flowers from the grocery store) is going strong! It spreads and billows and multiplies. While this is the end our Garden Lullaby series, the garden journey, this billowing-out life of mine is far from over.
Pictured below is an ultrasound of our second child due any day this spring. I began gardening when my husband and I were in the deep end of infertility, and now as the garden grows, so does our family. God did the miracle of life in more ways than only giving us children (and you can read that journey in Hope Gives a Eulogy), but He has given us children as part of this life saga, and I savor the gift!
I am surrounded by miracles. I love that the garden is a picture of my soul, of what God has healed, made well, made beautiful in me and around me.
And so maybe it’s true. . .
Perhaps the best and most spectacular stories really do begin in the most unlikely of places.
The tiny porch garden spread to the side of the house then spilled farther over into a rose bed which gave way to a vegetable raised bed which needed a flower bed for company and a fairy garden to boot and a patched together gate to get in and, of course, MORE PLANTS TO COME SOON! Small baby steps. . .that’s the way!
This has been 2 years in the making, a picture of healing, and a display of God doing life with a very broken, grieving woman!
Gardening will always be one of my biggest & best life surprises and one of the most obvious places I can see the history of God’s very intimate care + love for me.
tomorrow holds our last post in the Garden Lullaby series! I am so glad to have transferred this journey of my garden beginnings from Instagram to my blog and a Google Docs. It’s important to me I keep it somewhere more settled and safe than the loud clanking of social media. The garden truly has been a place of healing, joy, and brightness. Yes, brightness! I have been held, seen, and known by God, and He has used flowers to show me that great love. Going forward, I’ll continue to post about the garden, share poetry, and invite you on this beautiful, surprising journey of my life amongst life.
I have not laughed so hard or long in awhile! My chest began to ache!
For Christmas, my husband bought me “Raised-Bed Gardening for Beginners.” Well, we proved there needed to be a prequel. Ben’s idea of “let’s look at the book” meant flipping quickly through the pages for less than a minute!
I read a couple things then we found scrap wood. . .well not just scrap wood. . .wood meant for the burn pile, but we made the pieces work.
The “box” ended up looking more like a trapezoid. We added logs to make up for gaps (it’ll be covered by soil anyway) and rocks at the corners to make up for more odd spaces. It looked pretty terrible in the process, but turned out rather lovely in the end! Ben is a magician when it comes to making things work.
We skipped all fancy fuss since this is our first attempt at raised bed gardening. Our porch garden began small and grew into a rose bed. I’ve no doubt our trapezoid box will grow into something bigger & better as time goes on, but bite size steps are always the best way for making things happen. One more garden “box” to build. We will see what kind of shape we manage.
Our garden is really beginning to come together in its own odd missy-matchty way. I love it! It’s all very nonlinear.
it’s two years later now and we have two more flower boxes, a second rose bed, another flower bed, and more things in the works. Life truly does spread. I can’t believe all this began in a corner on porch. And here we are!!
I keep a little book filled with one line prayers, new thought patterns I want to instill, and personal motivation. Before Covid_19, I wrote something to the effect of “I will plant my feet in chaos and change.” Even before this crisis, I was feeling as though life was upended and transitionary. It felt unstable…not in bad ways, but in ways that came with new needs & unknowns. It’s that place of being in the unsettled middle. You can’t go backward and you love going forward, but forward looks like nothing you’ve known before. . .
So I resolved to plant my feet.
Put my rosebush in the ground.
Settle into life.
Be right where I was.
Then all the worldwide chaos entered! And yet, my personal resolve withstands: I will plant my feet in chaos and change.
I’m going to plant a garden. I’m going to tend to my home. I’m going to dream. I’m going to envision plans. I’m going to work hard and well. I’m going to prepare for our baby. I’m going to feed treats to the goats and organize our bright yellow shed and carry on. And it IS chaotic. But we’re right here. This is real. This is our place for life, for living. This is the time to plant ourselves again. This is precisely when we carry on.