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This Is Life

Garden Lullaby, December 26, 2018

After our lovely Christmas morning, I took a walk to pick all sorts of fresh greenery to fill our home. The greenery was to celebrate the birth of Jesus, of Hope, of everlasting LIFE! I avoided all the noisy places where I get lost. And in the process, I could truly hear & give thanks to the God who names me FOUND. Yesterday was sacred.

I’ve been in John 10, and I love these words, “I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” I have tasted this and known it! Songs of heaven & hope filled our home while my vases outpoured with life. I celebrated Christmas in the best way I knew how and my soul soaked it all in! @grayhavensmusic says it well,

This my soul you were born

You were born into

What this man has done

It all extends to you

Let the words shake on down along your spine

And ring out true that you might find new life.

I’ve never known a richer Christmas. I’ve never been so full of joy on December 26th. THIS is life with God!

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Garden Lullaby, November 9, 2018

R A D I A N T 

I have waited and prayed for this. Looks nothing like I thought it would. I expected lots of green growth before any kind of bloom. But here we are in the middle of unmet expectations. Small. Beautiful. Radiant.

I think this is what my soul looks like when joy and grief crash into one another and then learn to coexist. There is an abundance of good gifts and a deep measure of pain. I can greet both at the same time. It doesn’t have to be one or the other. I can praise God and feel broken. I can laugh hard while sitting with sorrow. I can celebrate life and what it means to live and embrace loss and what it means to lose.

God gives us courage and comfort to be like this marigold…to meet joy & grief head on. To bask in the sunlight and shadows of unmet expectations and say, “This is hard, but this is beautiful too.”


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Middle Thoughts Again

Garden Lullaby, November 2, 2018

I saw this tiny marigold bloom and thought, “the beginning of something beautiful.” But I was wrong. I’m always wrong.

These marigolds are in the MIDDLE of something beautiful. There was beauty in the roots and beauty in the blooms. There was beauty when they died and beauty when they held tight to life. There was beauty in the fullness and beauty in the spindly, determined stems. There was beauty in a dozen, and beauty now in a tiny, brave marigold basking in the sun. This marigold bush has always been in the midst of beauty…different kinds, all sorts. Never asking to be seen, but living the middle again, again, again.

I’m in the middle too. And here is beautiful, changing life again, again, again.

One thing I would say differently now is I don’t believe death has to be beautiful.

It was beautiful that these marigolds completed a full life. Beautiful they bloomed and lived. I could celebrate that. But death is loss and not the way it’s supposed to be. Now, I know this is a flower, so in no way are we talking souls here, but I think maybe I had still been in a place of trying to reconcile and shape pain into a good thing. Maybe not. I can’t remember exact thoughts from November 2018!

But I do know I don’t have to make death and loss and pain into something good. God didn’t create it to be this way. He transforms, heals, brings life into brokenness, out of brokeness, alongside brokenness, but I don’t think the death part is the good part.

The pressure isn’t on you or me to make things good and okay and beautiful again. We can trust God and ask Him for comfort as we experience so many forms of death in this broken world. And simultaneously we can celebrate the life present like spindly, determined marigold stems or getting out of bed with songs of hope in our heart though life is feeling ragged, but for the rest that is much too hard to bear, we don’t have to make it beautiful.

We can simply fall into the comfort of our friend Jesus and trust in our sovereign, loving, kind, and just God who thinks of us and knows us and knows so much more than us.

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Spindly Marigold

Garden Lullaby, October 24, 2018

While there is life to be lived, these marigolds will be living it. I once called them ugly. They got eaten…TWICE. But here they are. HERE THEY ARE! 

Deep, strong roots evidenced by spindly, sparse, unfragile blooms. Nothing is more beautiful in my porch garden than these resilient marigolds and their hidden roots. I’m learning a thousand ways to live like these marigolds…bold, resolved, and rooted in God. Meanwhile, spindly, unfragile joy is breaking to the surface, and I’ve never been more happy to be a twice-eaten marigold.


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