motherhood
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The Days Before I Saw My First Positive Pregnancy Test
Quite a few Novembers ago, I remember sitting outside and trudging through the emotions that come with infertility. There was a storm brewing in the distance, but as I sat there I suddenly felt that it would be okay. . . even good. Not right then. Maybe not soon. But sometime. There was a a… Continue reading
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Bright Yellow Boots
if you’d stayed littlelike all mothers sometimeshope, then I wouldn’t smileso brightly nowwatching you toddlein your bright yellowboots. and one daystanding in the kitchen,I’ll be having a conversationwith a man,and I’ll wonder how it happened.I’ll think back forjust a secondto once upon a timewhen you fit perfect in myyoung arms. but you’ll say, “Mom,”and I’ll… Continue reading
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Birth in Times Like These
They said it would betoo scary to bringa babyinto this kind ofworld. As if someone’s birthdayshouldn’t happenbecause we think onlyin nightmares. As if the weightof our worryis their realityforever. As if we are thepiratesof all peaceand goodness. As if God ran outof His beautyand powerand kindnessand lovethe momentwe grew upto give birth to the childrenwe… Continue reading
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Summer of Lullabies
It’s the sound of a fish tank and an old black fan. The creak of a rocking chair painted by his Grandma. . . the word Grow stretched across the arm. Reminding me every night that watching him grow up is so, so good. That time goes to beautiful and good places. It’s his breathing,… Continue reading
Sierra V. Fedorko 