motherhood
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The Desert Sky, Flowers, and the 4th Trimester
I smile at Heidi who smiles at me with her whole face. I love how she talks with such gusto, concentration, and effort. I walk by the flower bed filled up with the wildflowers and zinnias we planted the weekend before her birth. Heidi is 3 months old now and it feels as though the… Continue reading
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Sunflowers, Summer Son
Our first sunflower of the season bloomed in the second week of July. I love sunflowers. They remind me of the summer I was pregnant with my son. That first time experiencing all the emotions that come with the final weeks of pregnancy, the excitement, the unknown, and the natural way your mind just starts… Continue reading
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It Was You The Whole Time
It was you the whole time. Before I knew I was pregnant. When two lines showed up even though that second one was faint. When I texted our midwife with the happy news even though it was early. But see, I’ve learned there’s no such thing as “early.” Just you! You the whole time. And… Continue reading
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Mommy Is Human But Here (and other postpartum reflections)
Hey kids, I’m crying in the kitchen, but I love you. And I still want you in my life! Hey kids, I want to enjoy mothering, but I feel like a machine. Yes, I want to enjoy mothering, but I feel like a machine. And I want to go outside with you, but I don’t… Continue reading
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