Garden Lullaby

Picture of Life in a Broken, Grieving Woman

Garden Lullaby, April 3, 2020

WE FINALLY HAVE A GARDEN!

photo of our garden late summer 2020 // we brought our firstborn home to zinnias, sunflowers, rose bushes, and more! what life!

The tiny porch garden spread to the side of the house then spilled farther over into a rose bed which gave way to a vegetable raised bed which needed a flower bed for company and a fairy garden to boot and a patched together gate to get in and, of course, MORE PLANTS TO COME SOON! Small baby steps. . .that’s the way!

This has been 2 years in the making, a picture of healing, and a display of God doing life with a very broken, grieving woman!

WOW.

Gardening will always be one of my biggest & best life surprises and one of the most obvious places I can see the history of God’s very intimate care + love for me.


tomorrow holds our last post in the Garden Lullaby series! I am so glad to have transferred this journey of my garden beginnings from Instagram to my blog and a Google Docs. It’s important to me I keep it somewhere more settled and safe than the loud clanking of social media. The garden truly has been a place of healing, joy, and brightness. Yes, brightness! I have been held, seen, and known by God, and He has used flowers to show me that great love. Going forward, I’ll continue to post about the garden, share poetry, and invite you on this beautiful, surprising journey of my life amongst life.

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Our First (Hilarious) Garden Box

Garden Lullaby, March 26, 2020

I have not laughed so hard or long in awhile! My chest began to ache!

For Christmas, my husband bought me “Raised-Bed Gardening for Beginners.” Well, we proved there needed to be a prequel. Ben’s idea of “let’s look at the book” meant flipping quickly through the pages for less than a minute!

I read a couple things then we found scrap wood. . .well not just scrap wood. . .wood meant for the burn pile, but we made the pieces work.

The “box” ended up looking more like a trapezoid. We added logs to make up for gaps (it’ll be covered by soil anyway) and rocks at the corners to make up for more odd spaces. It looked pretty terrible in the process, but turned out rather lovely in the end! Ben is a magician when it comes to making things work.

We skipped all fancy fuss since this is our first attempt at raised bed gardening. Our porch garden began small and grew into a rose bed. I’ve no doubt our trapezoid box will grow into something bigger & better as time goes on, but bite size steps are always the best way for making things happen. One more garden “box” to build. We will see what kind of shape we manage.

Our garden is really beginning to come together in its own odd missy-matchty way. I love it! It’s all very nonlinear.

Like life!


it’s two years later now and we have two more flower boxes, a second rose bed, another flower bed, and more things in the works. Life truly does spread. I can’t believe all this began in a corner on porch. And here we are!!

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Miss Margie & The Rose Bush

Garden Lullaby, March 13, 2020

There’s a story behind this little rose bush!

About a month ago, we were letting our goats graze. We had protected our roses since they are a delectable treat for goats. Well, we didn’t take severe enough measure because I looked out the window and lo and behold! Miss Margie was sitting ON TOP of where my little rose bush had been! I was mad! (And it was also kinda funny, but I was mad) She just kerplunked herself down as conqueror and queen of my poor, annihilated bush! The tiny root was just a couple inches (at most) above the ground. It really looked like the end…but it wasn’t. IT WASN’T! And this is my rose bush today…healthier and happier than ever. I’ve never ever seen it look so good!

Lesson 1: Something can FEEL like the end and not BE the end. That doesn’t mean we ignore the uncomfortable + painful process, but we do work through it. We trust God. We wait. We anticipate. We grow or we let go. God will always show us which of these to do.

Lesson 2: Miss Margie may be a better gardener than I am.


about this series

Healing’s Synonym, poem

who I am + what I write

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Freeze the Wonder of It

Garden Lullaby, February 3, 2020

Capture beauty right when you see it!

Don’t wait!

I took a few snaps of these flowers on our way out the door this Sunday. We had a few spring-like days and I soaked up the sunshine and reveled in the spring sounds.

But last night brought frost and most of today has been very cold so these stunners are completely wilted, having bent to the whims of the weather. But I didn’t miss my chance to exclaim HOW BEAUTIFUL and to freeze the wonder of it. 

You can’t dictate when life is going to change. But you can fully sit in the beautiful moment you’ve got. You can take two minutes to pause and enjoy.

In God, you are always safe to rejoice even when a night of frost is right around the corner.


Hope Outlasts Holiday Spirit, a good reminder for March

Unmet Expectations. . . poem

No Children, No Hesitation. . .poem