infertility · Poetry

Hope Gives a Eulogy is OUT NOW!

IT’S OFFICIALLY HERE!! When I said Hope Gives a Eulogy would be out in April, I meant early April. Like today April! So here’s a little backstory that makes this release month so special. . .

I’d been suffering infertility a good while before April 2018, but that particular month was a tidal wave of pain and honestly. . .despair. But April 2018 was also the undeniable turning point toward my healing.

A year later in April 2019, a day after Easter, I watched our Margie give birth to two little goat kids. It was beautiful. Those baby goats came at just the perfect time. A deep gift from God.

In April 2020, I was pregnant with our son and Hope Gives a Eulogy was just an idea. At some point that spring, I remember talking to Ben about my idea in the goat pen. It’s not just my story to tell, and we both had to be 100% in. “What if I wrote about infertility through poetry that could be read like a story?” He thought it was a good idea.

Which brings us to April 2021. A handful of days after Easter, Hope Gives a Eulogy is published.🎉🧡 My heart is between these pages, and HGaE voices the unseen stories so many of us have lived/are living.

I didn’t strategically plan for the timeline to work out this way. Healing isn’t linear. And neither is life. But I don’t think it’s an accident April is the beautiful beginning, middle, and finale.

Even though we all KNOW God isn’t finished yet. There is more story to tell. More healing in Him to experience. More LIFE. But here we are in April again. . .and it’s a story worth telling and celebrating as it stands now.

Hope Gives a Eulogy can now be purchased on Amazon🧡 (get yours here🎉). So excited and READY to share these personal, hard, sorrowful, resilient, triumphant poems with you! As I tell my story, I hope you feel seen.

I am waiting with you.


Why Hope Gives a Eulogy Will *Not* Have Page Numbers

Two things I specifically didn’t want in Hope Gives a Eulogy + WHY. . .

1) Page numbers
2)Table of Contents

Here’s why:

-page numbers would distract from the poetry and I want you to move through the story in the same way I did. I didn’t have an idea of a timeline. Page numbers give direction, but when you’re in the thick of it, you are just IN IT. You don’t know where you are or what’s really going to happen when you turn the page, but you have to turn the page because it’s your life.

-table of contents? I more than likely would have said no to a table of contents any which way you cut that cake, but do you know of anyone who gets to read a table of contents before they live their story?! Me neither! There’s no way to know.

So on these pages without numbers in a book without a table of contents, I learned to grieve, celebrate, stand up, wait long, breathe, hope, be unafraid, dream, trust, and laugh. My soul healed in God.

And I want you to go on that journey as closely as you can.

Forgetting Hope Gives a Eulogy is a book in your hand.

Being in those years with me.

Feeling seen and known as these poems meet you wherever you are.

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