Last March hit me like a freight train. It was chaos in my mind, a revisiting of mental warfare I knew too well and hated so much. But as the days progress, you can see the victory God gave me! God is ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS greater and more powerful!
In the last 13 years, I have battled seasons of severe anxiety and fear. I am not an expert on mental health and would never claim to be, but I can tell you meditating on the truth of God’s Word, realigning my mind to what is real, and understanding my new identity in Christ has been the way of freedom from any grip of my my spiraling darkness. And I have spiraled and I have felt hopeless, but God! As spring broke in, the light broke through my heart again. And while we lost our beloved goat near the end of March, life still prevailed.
And you’ll see so much of it in April & May!
01: let’s be honest. . .a rough start. . .
02: resting + making a list of things God has given. . .cultivating thanks
03. God giveth and giveth and giveth and giveth more grace ❤
04: legos with L + M & goats with the neighbors 🙂 a tiny bit of sun
05: nothing recorded
06: ❤ 3 different, very specific gifts from God ❤
07: Ephesians 2 ❤
08: good laughter + bonding with D
09: manzanita blooms. . .touching the promise of spring. much needed
10: God turned around my whole weekend. He’s changing my life.
11: nothing recorded
12: progress on pantry. . .a better day 🙂
13: beautiful day of sunshine
14: pantry done & chat with J
15: Psalm 119:9-39 ❤ ❤
16: dawn of victory
17: ❤ more victory + “birthday observation” shopping
18: Birthday Observation Day 😀
19: God will prevail. ❤
20: God did PREVAIL and He is & will continue to
21-22: C + family
23: search me and know me ❤
24: so much victory!
25: -more freedom & still listening, still fighting (for truth)
26: beautiful buttercups in the breeze + birds chirping
27: the sun came out to surprise us! ❤
28: I LOVE E’s prayers at snack and all she is thankful for. . . .
29: (billy goat dies suddenly, horribly) Nigel ❤ we sure loved ya
30: Margie starts to kid (which turned out to be Margie just getting visibly closer to kidding 😀 )
31: New life 😀
This post has been sitting in the draft section for awhile. . . just waiting for the end of March. I had no idea then that our world would look and feel so different, that March would hit us all like a freight train, that it would be uncharted territory, and that we would all face some kind of loss, uncertainty, or unknown. But here we are. It’s March. And it’s pretty ugly. Again.
But you know what?
This is not the end. God is greater. Life prevails. The hope of who God is permeates our every day and settles into our souls when all else feels unsettling. We are here. And we can be confident without embracing blind optimism. Let’s fight for truth. Let’s grieve with God. Let’s anticipate the good, glory-filled, wonderful things God will do. Let’s take refuge in His steadfast love and faithfulness. This is hope in action.